Maybe i ate too much biscotti, or its just the bore of having to stay at home and study for 2 hours, but i'm falling sick:( waking up to feel tired, then dozing so easily when studying, waking up to perspire and all although it is air conditioned. its like, feeling hot inside, but still showering in warm water cos i feel cold? i'm not making much sense am i?:(

aaah... i'm waiting to watch eclipse and gorge on popcorn (maybe?:D) and i don't wanna fall sick now:( all this tiredness is sapping all my strength. although on a happier note, at least during the exams, we dont have to learn new things, just revise old things, so my brains get to rest in terms of the 'absorbing and internalising new things' part.

saw grandma and jaeden downstairs after i bought dinner last night, at the void deck, and he, at seven months old, is bouncing happily barefooted on grandma's lap and slobbering, smelling like baby powder:) i can't really remember, but i must have had my go at doing that the last time i was that tiny:) he looks happy slobbering all over me, and i can't find it in me to get annoyed. i just laughed along with him (well, he giggled WHILE slobbering. it takes a lot of skill to master that right?:)) and went home smelling like baby powder and ointment. when he smiles, he locks his eyes with you, and for that moment, you cannot remember anything but that smile, and you can't help but smile back. that's what i call bonding, not some silly covalent, ionic or metallic bonds that is not applicable at all in daily life. we keep trying to infuse kids with more knowledge nowadays, but we seem to have taken character development for granted, haven't we?

well, i am determined to make jaeden's first words 'jie jie', and im on the right track, seeing as how he bounces when he sees me:) haha, am i crazy when i smiled and nearly laughed as i recall him bouncing as i typed the previous sentence? no, i don't believe so. i'm just in love. in love with the innocence of childhood:D (well, maybe the slobbering and bouncing too. the whole package:)) his fingers ARE SO TINY i don't understand how my aunt cuts his nails for him... then again, those are the fingers that hold on to my fingers so tightly when i play with him, and those are the fingers that will go on to hold a pen, then later, a girl's hands when he grows up. so many things start small, and a baby is the best evidence.

don't discriminate small, will you?:)