Been feeling a little out of sorts lately... and i can't really describe the feeling, except for that sometimes, i get a little short tempered and introverted (which is totally weird because although i wouldn't say that i'm a complete extrovert, i'm not an introvert kinda person- get it?:)) i tire so easily now, and sometimes, i snap. at the littlest of things, then i get mad at myself for getting mad over these little things, like a vicious cycle.

just moments ago, my good mood got dampened due to superstition, not on my bit, but on someone else's bit. but because the outcome would affect ME, i became a little selfish and somewhat defensive? i'll confess that i am not an extremely religious person, but i do believe in a god, out there, looking at us. a kind god. and i believe that there are phenomenons that happen that science tries to but fails to explain, and that it can well be the doings of a higher being. i totally do. but i don't believe in attributing the littlest of things to superstition, then making a decision that you know will affect NOT JUST YOURSELF, BUT OTHERS AS WELL, especially when you know that others (INCLUDING MYSELF, I'LL ADMIT) are looking forward to the event. alot. and i haven't found it in me to completely forgive the previous instance when your decision made me, and a few others really unhappy for one night. although it did later become ok:D as all things do...

but well, its over and we've gotten over it, so we can move past this hurdle to become better people. well, i'm trying, so give me some encouragement in the right direction will you?:D

OH, and it felt like the exams ended today. woohoo:) it was such a great feeling to be able to churn out every single little detail about the spanish civil war onto the paper. i thought i wasn't able to remember it, but when we got in and i saw the question, plus maybe the fact that i had no notes or books to save me, i could do it. like, not the smoke my way through type of do, but properly doing it!!!!!!! it was the BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD. one of the best i have felt since the exams started:)

had my virgin meal at botak jones. and the guys were right- the portions are kind of huge. and i think that if i went with my 'bubble' (yay:D), or any one of the gals, we would be able to finish the stuffs properly. but i'll say that the chicken's not too bad... it was weird. i was the only one eating chicken, though i usually go for fish. so we were all waiting for my one plate of chicken. the guys all ordered fish and chips. is it just me, or do people find it weird that FOUR GUYS ALL ORDERED FISH AND CHIPS? i always thought fish was a girl thing. guess i was wrong?:)

but any ways it was raining, and we nearly had to eat at a table with our shoes dipped in a puddle. luckily, ngiam found us a table. though we had to clean it. and then i very nicely asked the uncle to help us wipe all the water and stains off the table. which he very nicely did. but guess what happened after that? the cloth fell into a puddle of rain water on the ground, and then HE PICKED IT UP AND JUST SLUNG IT BY THE BUCKET, WITHOUT RINSING IT. and god knows if that was the fate of the cloth before he used it to wipe our table... but so far, i'm feeling fine, so i guess not?:) either that or my active immunity is really strong so my memory T cells are doing their jobs, and maybe the B cells too. combating antigens:)

well, after such a long post and all, i feel really really EXTREMELY liberated:) and happier. well, Brazil scored a goal and is leading by one point. yay yay yay:)

just a little picture of my current eye candy- it's unfair. so few pictures of him on the web. country he plays for: spain. position: midfielder. name? javi martinez. i spotted him on the papers two days ago while reading about the portugal spain match predictions, and there he was on the paper, staring right back at me. well, not exactly staring, more like, looking out of the sides of his eyes. but whatever. it doesn't matter. he's cute:) and he's only 21. young and talented no?