school's tiring. although we get released earlier this year than last year, i feel as if im not doing anything productive. like at least, last year, i had an excuse because we end late. this year? NONE. really feel like crap inside already.

all the teachers tell us that with consistent work, we'll make it through. and madam was so hopeful ,proclaiming after bio lab session that she's looking at all 40 pointers and above. well, i wish i shared her confidence.

i know i want it. i know, that with some effort, i can do it. so why on earth is it so hard to PUT IN SOME FREAKING EFFORT FOR GOD'S SAKE? it is beyond me, really. and i just hope that as the weeks stretch into months, i will feel more motivated. at least a tiny bit.

EE. IA. TOK. world lit essay. blah blah blah. life is a demanding cycle. wonder what it feels like to look back and tell people happily, "i survived IB." i want to feel the sense of accomplishment, of confidence that i can have the future i want myself to have.

less tv, less facebook would do me a whole lot of good. i think. but then again, i dont fb much anymore. its the tv. but its what keeps me sane while having to find that 'unique' link between miss julie and house of bernada alba- perhaps the treatment of absentee characters, or mayb the effect gossiping of the servants on the plays, the servant's domination over the mistress of the house? i dont know.

aargh. rarely have i been more irritated than at peace, and this is the year. THE YEAR.

well, everyone's gotta start somewhere i suppose. im gonna start now by finishing my readings on circulation and immunity, then finally get started on my chem pract report, and perhaps do some SL math to make myself happy before i sleep.

sounds good? never been better. DRAMA TOMORROW!:) can't wait!

why is monday so far from friday, but friday so close to monday?:(