never used to understand the full meaning of what this phrase meant... until today. just felt this weird kind of exhaustion that washes, wave after wave onto me, until i felt like i had almost been eroded into nothing. been sleeping near midnight and waking up at like, 5.30am to do my work. i wouldnt dare say that we have alot of work, but rather, i lack the motivation and discipline to do it. but im trying, i really am. for now, despite all my 'whining', i still manage to get it done on time. hopefully, it stays that way:)

EE's been what im stressing over, so stop telling that because it is less demanding content wise for IB, it is easier than A levels, cos IT IS NOT. the IAs and EE, not to mention math port and all those weird things,more than makes up for it. im one fickle minded person when it comes to EE, forever wanting to do another topic that i brillantly came up with, giving my mentor so much trouble:/ but this time, i promise, i will stick with it. scouts honour (though im not a scout=.=)

had drama rehearsal today after school. one word- fantabulous. i felt alive again, acting, like im no longer who i am, but one of the characters in the play. though im actually the director so im actually just covering for the absentees. but i wanna shout it loudly to the world: I LOVE DRAMA. it helps me destress, and i love the people in it. we fun loving, exciting drama people. i will never give it up in favour of another CCA. im glad that i actually grit my teeth and auditioned for drama last year, during orientation. i thought i was going to die of embarassment, cos the others were SO GOOD, but i suppose the teachers saw something (till this day i still dont know what) and took me in:)

my motivation:



the girlies in our performance pose:)


drama queens:)


im lucky to always find something that keeps me going- student council in sec sch, and now drama in jc years:)

after drama, once i got home? it was tv and facebook all the way. i feel guilty. i should be doing my work i suppose. i keep telling myself that i have tomorrow and sunday- who am i kidding? we all know that its never enough. my to do list has like, fifteen items, all homeowork due next week. i am way behind already:(

faith is when you can only see 50 meters ahead, but knowing that you have 5km to go, but never giving up, always trusting that you will find your way. i'm off to find mine now:)