have you ever struggled to breathe?
have you ever had trouble focusing on exhaling and inhaling?
have you ever felt the fear when you realised you cant control the above two?
have you ever wondered what's wrong with yourself and blame it all on paranoia?
have you ever go to sleep wondering if you will wake up tomorrow?
have you ever felt like you feel like you could see where you will be in ten years but have no idea how to get from now till then?
have you ever wondered that if the world ends tomorrow, how much regrets would you have?
have you ever wondered if people whom you care for cares for you?
have you ever felt like putting everything down, chucking everything you ever owned out of the window in a bid to remember who you were before all these things masked the true you?
have you ever been at a loss of what to do?
have you ever felt like you are losing control, that you no longer know what will happen in the next second?
have you ever felt that you were not good enough, no matter what you did, no matter how hard you try?
have you ever wished so hard that you would fall sick miraculously and not go to school the next day?
have you ever felt like everything you are doing is wrong, from the EE to the TOK essay to the IAs?
have you ever felt like crying when you ask for help and all people say is to hang in there and you will soon figure it out?

i have.

what if i never figure it out? ever?