since no one reads this blog anymore, i figured that all my updates are basically just a form of stashing my memories somewhere.

finally back from new york. well, been back for almost... four days?:) still missing the weather there. and the bargain shopping. and central park. been so caught up with my life that i seem to be slowing missing fragments of it- friends especially. want to say a sorry to all my friends whom i care for and who cares for me, who love me so much that they do their best to rein me in:) thank you for not abandoning me when i somehow am stupid enough to lose touch with you:)

they say love is like a crystal ball. wonderful, but fragile. the feeling of being shattered- i dont see how i can describe it to justify just how much it hurts- but i wont wish it upon anyone. i might have accidentally caused it, and whoever i hurt, i'm sorry. really, truly, deeply. i didnt mean it. hope i didnt shatter any crystal balls this holidays:X i love all my friends:)

make me less selfish. make me more deserving of the love i have gotten, and am still getting. make me more thankful. make me strong. please. it's all i want.