i hate to admit it. but i think im depressed. (haha, you all might think. its funny really) but yeah, shoot me. so what?

im missing all the little little things which i didnt really, truly appreciate. the small things. i miss the way i could walk into the non air conditioned canteen, full of birds hopping around, and see people i know in every corner, at nearly every table. i miss being able to identify people's faces in the queues and be able to just say hi and talk randomly about some stupid things. i miss having to squeeze at a table, eating shoulder to shoulder, and drinking the green syrup drink the auntie sells as "honeydew drink". i miss the long queues for food, where i spend the time chatting with sathia and bryant and people, and laughing about the funny things our teachers did in class.

i miss perspiring in class, and all the grouchy things we say when we complain about the inadequate facilities. i miss turning around my seat to see a funny face, and be caught chatting with each other by the teacher, then giving a sheepish smile. i miss the low quality projectors in class, how the teacher gets exasperated and how we play in glee. i miss being nudged awake in class, and having sathia photograph my unglam sleeping poses (not a lot, but still, i miss it). i miss hanging back in class during recess and just gathering in our makeshift bookshelf cum sofa and chit chatting with weiqi, jiaxin and the other girlies. i miss having to turn my head around to ask ummu what the heck was the teacher talking about (not that it happened often). i miss seeing all the UG uniforms hung on the windows of the classroom, making it all stuffy and hot and making our minds wander off to somewhere else.

i miss the black pulse studio, where the temperature in our little green room can plunge to below 16. i miss mr ang walking in on us and lecturing us about saving energy when he knows he said it a thousand times:D i miss mr ang's booming voice saying my name across the room or the canteen. in chinese, nonetheless. i miss mr lam trying to get the room to be neater (haha) and it only stays that way for a day. i miss sathia and darren poking fun at me and vath, and rachel too. i miss seeing jiaqi play the word game on facebook. i miss having to fight with the guys on what songs to play in the speakers. i miss sitting outside recording my whatever script there was to be recorded with darren, when we suddenly burst into fits of laughter.

i miss everything in the school, there's just so much to be missed. and so many people too. the teachers, all of whom i can very nearly recognise even when they're back facing me. i miss it all:( not that school now isnt good, but its still different. there's always a special place in my heart for JSS, and a special box in my mind to store the memories we all had, no matter how bitter the road, it was still an AMAZING journey:)

i miss JSS. and the people. i learnt one thing: no matter what the school is, it is only what it is with the people who make it what it is. i want my hall with air coolers, the classroom with heatwaves, the tables that are scratched and decorated in graffiti, the canteen with birds hopping around. the four basketball courts, the two volleyball courts, the mini parade ground, the student council room and the explorers' lab. as well as the pulse studio, the library, the PBL room. the everything that is still everything to me.