perhaps i have experienced the true feeling of flight, not literally on the plane, but riding on time, which slips away, a little by a little, a precious moment and another. yet no matter how hard i try to hold on to it, it still flies, and perhaps the true meaning of flight meant leaving behind. time is ticking, and every second counts. does it really?

i had a really weird dream yesterday. i dreamt that someone i love a lot died, and there was nothing i could do. there was this weird empty feeling inside, like your heart's been ripped out and you wonder how you could actually survive. how could it be that you are still breathing when you feel absolute emptiness inside, your heart having died with that person? ever got this feeling of sinking so deep that you know you cant get out whole again? i did. it was horrible. horribly horrific. a feeling i wish no one would ever had to feel.

someone told me that by saying it, it can dissipate the bad aura of the dream, so i'm writing it here, for that to break into tiny fragments that i can treat it was a figment of my imagination, never happening before. i woke up with a start and i was actually crying. absurd, you might think, crying because of a dream. but if you've dreamt of something similiar you would have had related with that same feeling... the intensity of the pain, the dreadfulness of loss.

maybe this was a signal for me to treasure the people around me and never let them go? or maybe its trying to tell me that that person is important to me? unknowingly when you begin to give, you receive too. separation is only hard because it makes it seem like a pair of conjoined twin, only that you cant see the part that's joint, so separation is made all the more harder.

to the few who'll ever read this post- love the people around you and treasure every moment cause you wont know when it'll be the last. you dont want to be left sorry and guilty when that person is no longer there.

life's greatest pleasure is really life's simplest joy.

lucks to everyone for your o levels!