i realised that i'm beginning to update lesser and lesser. and a significant number of my previous posts are in other languages=.= what's wrong with me now?! :( i have no idea either....latin, spanish, japanese. gawd. time to stick to perfect english:D

o levels are drawing nearer and nearer and nearer:( shucks! 4 weeks to prelims, 84 days to Os. and i m one piece of dead meat who havent found her motivation to start studying! wake up self! wake up! wake up!

i promise to do my best but i havent really done so. i wonder who i can really confide in when i really want to cause its so hard to say it out. sometimes i am wary of people, because you can never know when or what to trust. and when its so hard to place your trust, there's only one way out-- dont trust.

i dont feel the bond, nor share the laughter. if exchanging a few words a day i who i call a real friend, then yes, i have many. somehow along the way as you grow up, some get lonelier, some get lesser so. i think i'm the former. now i cant really say i love going to school, because i feel that going to school seemed to become a place where people get judged. one time too many i have seen this, one time too many i should have had apologised.

i think school's a hell lot worser than the real world, because in the real world, at least people judge you behind your back. it's a brutal world. growing up years are really stressful. and weird.

and yes, i do indeed wonder sometimes.

if i werent here, who would i have had become?