sometimes you just wish like stopping. like giving life a meaningful end. like vanishing to a place where noone's ever been and never coming back. there's so much you can wish for but there's only this much that you can get. i suppose humans are like that.

i just want to say: i'm tired of wishing for things which never come true. let me go. set me free.

fly me high. and freeze this moment for ever.
for when the when the lies get deeper, the soul gets emptier.
i almost forgot how it felt to be full.

" the hottest love has the coldest end" - Socrates
how we know this fact
but still throw ourselves into it
i dont know.

there's no real line between the real and the reflected
nature showed us what flawless beauty really is
and we cant match up
i wished i lived in this place.
me and the trees.
no one can ever hurt us again.

time sink
memories are thrown into this never ending abyss
it exists in everyone of us.
the coldest heat to ever exist
and i wonder how it feels to hold your heart in your hand
and feel the last of life seeping out
that every drop of blood which flows
can take away the fraction of the pain inflicted
and when you feel numb
you know you're a lost cause

to be scattered across the seven seas, the seven continents. and be washed away with time. maybe the pain will stop. a long time after it began. until it becomes a habit, a daily part of your life. a growing thorn in the heart.

i promise. what you give me, i'll return it to you a million times more. and dont blame it on me. you made me this way. so you'll never know the real me whom you destroyed. that me who still means the world to someone.