i just realised that i seem to be making choice everyday- from what to eat to what to do. and sometimes when ppl ask me why i did something a certain way and i go," i had no other choices." sounds familiar? this might be YOU. and it is so totally me, sometimes. yet when i think back, when i m saying that i have no choice, i m actually making a choice to say that i had none. ironic?

sometimes, i quite like having no choice, just sitting back, letting others do it for me. yet sometimes when others make a choice for me, i kind of hate it. its really lame and all, but it somehow happens. guess it happens to everyone.

its really emotionally draining and exhausting to make choices. some of which you made then later on, realised that you have made a wrong one. and even if you realised years later that you have made the right choice, at that juncture, you might have thought that you've made a wrong one. the wait to see if the choices go the way you want them to be, is painful. you are anxious, worried and lost in yourself. though i sometimes enjoy the wait, because during the wait, there's always hope that you'll turn out right, though you might speculate that you are wrong.

now i am once again at a junction where i have to make a choice- and i m so totally drowning. it somehow always turn out like this. for others, i seem to be able to advise them on making the right choices, at least, nearly always, but for myself, this does not seem to be the case.

follow my heart, or my mind? its mind boggling.

i am a chooser who loves her choices and spends her time choosing. at the same time, i hate having too many or little choices, choosing over 2 things, and myself for being a chooser. now how is that POSSIBLE? i dont know. DO YOU, HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE THAT? SAME HERE...

aargh. crapping once more... gtg do bio, chem and physics hw. tata for now. and thanks for spending time reading this post. LOVE YOU ALL<3