am very very very unhappy.

a-maths test tmr. and i cant seem to grasp linear law. and binomial theorem i m only so-so only....
and mr ooi says i flunked my e-maths. cause i rounded off the answers prematurely. but noone told me that 3 sig fig didnt work. no 1 told me u need at least 5. so how can i know?

i no longer believe in those who say that my maths is good. truth is, it sucks. please la. i m not trying to make others feel horrible but the truth is, my maths is nothing. its less than average. and i dun understand it.

PEOPLE SAY THAT U REAP WHAT U SOW. so where are my so called "reaps"? i m uinsure. everyone is. its just that they dun show it. so? in onclusion pls STOP SAYING THAT I M boasting. cause i swear i m not. look at my flunked e-maths and u can tell.

they say u tell yourself u can do it and u can. i call it lying to yourself. and people who lie to youself end up in the 10th and final level of hell. like what dante has sketched. the worst sin is not to have lied to others, but to youself. it is even worser then murdering others. cause by lying to yourself, u will be living a lie. and you will never know the real you.

so please spare me the pain. stop telling me that i m not meeting expectations. the thing is that there are too many. and the one which matters the most to me is my expectations of myself. NOT YOURS. NOT EVERYONE elses'.

ok. i finished venting. so i shall return to my poor a maths and start drowning all over again.


sometimes, i m scared of myself.

are you?