oops. i haven been updating my blog for a long long time already... guess im too busy studying. and by saying that, i really mean STUDY. doing endless number of papers for a maths, physics and chem. eeek. and somehow i still cant seem to grasp chem. but i will. and i WILL. but there isnt enough time. is there?

people say u cant have the best of both worlds. by focusing on some subjects more u will forget about the others. or simply have to let some go. but i cant. i m not ready to do so. and i dont want to do so...

hmm. b4 i ponder more about my inability to let things go, i wanna discuss a topic today. just before the exams. POWER.

it can mean this:
Peserverence
On the go
Willingness
Enthusiasm
Responsibility

or it can mean this:
Power hungry
Ousted
Weary
Evil
Restless

so how do we ensure that this doesnt turn into the latter? how do we make power positive and put it to good use? how do we prevent the green eye monster from obscuring our vision? how do we end the power for struggle?

to me power is goood to have as a friend, but not as an enemy. power can change one person. it can make you selfish, weary of everyone, even your best friend. and it will make you tired. somehow, when u start to crave power and u are given more, u suddenly dont want to let go. u want everything. at no expenses. but do you see the people around you? who want to give you the oxygen u so desperately need when u are drowning but yet u suspect that the oxygen tanks contain carbon monoxide and therefore refuse it?
so in the end, you drown.
YES. and i mean drown.
in the end u have no1 but yourself. and then u wonder why... when all the power in this world cant give you somethings. like friends. like trust. like respect. so before you drown, dont reject the help. its not too late. at least not yet.

so what you have power when you have no real friends?

dont do stupid things. we see you struggling. and in the course, u hurt many around you. including me. those words you said. but i m ready to let it go. ready when you are:)

yep.

i think that's all.

O. last thing!! i passed my a maths test!! GOT 80 outta 100. wheets xD