hmm... dont really know what to write about. ok. confidence. this is something we all wished we have. but do we really have it? well, we all ahve it, hidden somewhere deep within us. we jus haven found it yet. sometimes i c someone walking on the street and i think: waaa. so confident arh? i wish i could be like her. then again, some who know me say that i have confidence. but what realli is it? is it something ppl perceive u haf? or sth which makes u feel good about yourself, no mattter where you are, who u r with, what u r wearing? i think its the latter.

let mi jus admit sth. i dun feel realli confident in myself. as in, not all the time. sometimes i say sth, then start thinking, how would others see it, interprete it. this shows that i have no confidence in my speech ma. its realli easy. and sometimes when ppl comment, your hair looks realli weird today, or i jus hate the colour of ur bag. it jus makes me feel way way small. no matter whether the person menas it or not. some ppl, they jus dun watch wad they say. then the whole day i'll be worrying, subconciously, about their comments. is it realli that bad?? sometimes it isnt, its jus because of what THOSE PPL SAY. ask yourself, r u confident 100% of the time? i would answer no. example. after speech day, i ask my friends, do i sound ok. have i made a blunder etc. then some scarastic ppl, mostly those kaypoh ppl will say, u're jus trying to show off. but realli, i jus wanted some assurance. is it that hard?!? some ppl are jus so weird. everithing that they are not good at, and others are good at, they jus say tat the person is trying to show off to them. but sometimes, can they JUS USE THEIR BRAINS?!? Y DO THEY KEEP THINKING OF EVERI1 AS BEING SO SHOWY AND OUT TO MAKE PPL FEEL BAD??

jus think. i wun say animore. i m so tired of ppl wid a false face. and i want my life back. life which isnt as hard or complicated. or messed up. and to those ppl out there who dun feel confident bout themselves: let's face it. we're all unsure of ourselves, at some point in time other. jus show it. dun feel shy. =) jus let loose and c how ppl react!!