not feeling so right nowadays.... like a bit emotional. sometimes wanna flare up over sth minor minor, then must control myself. dun understand wad's goin on inside mi. like got internal turmoil liddat...

even someone i m talking to can make mi feel a little anger bubbling up inside mi... scary. monster unleashed. have to BE IN TOTAL CONTROL OF MY LIFE. lotsa things make mi very happi.... but also got some sad things which happened. =( =) like imbalance.

jus hope that mayb the new year happiness is infectious. then i can feel a little more joy. haha. cause the story published in the new paper todae sumhow jus got to mi... u guys ought to go read. an old lady having reunion dinner ALONE. eating instant noodles. cause her son look down on her. got a doctor son, a daughter in law and a 4 mth old grandson. yet spending new year;s eve alone. what kinda son is THAT? she even had to take him to court to make him pay tribunal maintainence. she barely scraped through life to put him through medical school.... then now this.


ok. very busy busy todae. later going out for DINNER. yayness!! and got the proposal. and the consent form. to do. and barely passed chem paper. for mum to sign.... sigh. how will she react? oops