till now, my life's not perfect. got lotsa problems bout lotsa tings and jus now thought bout wad i seen the other dae and it all makes sense. 100%. b4 sotong, sea horse and sea animals, i thought my life was ok. but tt day, after i finished teaching tuition and came home, saw tis guy in black jeans and top lingering outside my door. then i went down a bit loudly and he fled. bleh. i shook it off tinkin it was nothin but hmm... is it connected to sotong? i m a 14 year old. i m not supposed to deal wid terror in my life right now. i m supposed to b happi go lucky. but i doubt it. everi time i ting sumting would b over, sumting comes along. wad m i supposed to do? revamp my life? all those gang stuff. i dun used to b bothered bout them, cause i felt tt it was sth too far away, too far to do mi ani harm. but i realised now tt sumtings and ppl are alwaes by ur side except tt u haf no idea. well, i have no idea. not until now. and to tink tt its a sec 1 frm JSS. sec 1 onli. i pity tt person. wad happened? i cant deal right now. everidae i wake up and wunder wad m i doin wid my life. is tis the first step to goin mad? i keep tinking and i become so totally engrossed. blah dah. and no1 understands. wad m i supposed to do? sometimes people realli r two sided. i guess. 2 sided. they act nice to u and on the other side they bite. isnt this world supposed to b pure and full of harmony? it isnt. humans failed in our jobs to keep tings tt way cause some released the green horned monster named jealousy into the earth. no1 i can trust. i dun like goin into tings which has a ? mark in it. esp those tings.

I REPEAT, I REALLI DUN LIKE GOIN INTO SOMETHING TT IS UNCERTAIN. HOW MANI TIMES MUST I DO IT? MUST I GET HURT FIRST THEN SAY I M NOT PLAYING ANIMORE? TO SOME PEOPLE ITS A YES CAUSE THEY STILL BELIEVE IN IT. BUT TO MI, I DUN WANNA GET HURT. SO PLEASE STOP BUGGIN MI.